It never gets easier. The passing of a loved one that played such a major part of your life. It’s the little things you notice the most. Like pulling up to the house and them not coming out to greet you. The reality then hits you that they won’t ever greet you at that doorstep again. The time changing and not getting a call to remind you. That call will never come again. These things break my heart. Even though I know she’s still with me, it’s a sore part of my heart that aches endlessly. It’s a part that won’t be filled ever. Despite all the love I still have in my life, I will always miss her.

I do have love, oceans of it from all angles. I have my friends, my chosen family. They help me in my weak moments. They celebrate life with me. Like my wolf’s birthday at the pool hall with the lovely Lysh and Nick. It’s funny how life works out and turns full circle. There are people I will always miss and those that will always have my heart.

People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…
Elizabeth Gilbert